Have you ever wanted to text someone saying “I miss you”, then erased it & wrote “what’s up” instead? Or have you ever written a long paragraph in a text and you wrote down how you felt, & wanted to send it to someone special, but maybe you were afraid you weren’t gonna get a reply cause you made it awkward, so you just drafted it or erased the whole thing & didn’t bother texting them at all?
I was the one that stood by your side no matter what. I was the one that gave you advices and helped you when you needed help. I was the one that got you up, on your feet again, when others knocked you down. I was the one that was doing everything to keep our friendship in place. I was the one that was always there for you. It makes me sad how I don’t even exist to you anymore. It’s like all those years of friendship went away.
Like when you first meet me, our conversation is going to be awkward no matter what because I wouldn’t have any idea what to talk about. It’s also worse when you’re cute. But if you wait a little I’ll get comfortable talking with you. Then I’ll start talking so much that it’ll annoy you. I really do talk a lot.
You really like someone or have feelings for someone or you just really love talking to someone, and they don’t reply to your text, fb msg, or any other form of communication, but you see them tweeting, blogging, or on updating facebook. It makes you feel stupid, you feel annoying, or a bother. It’s not a good feeling. I hate that feeling.
um ok i guess, here i go.
well it all started about the beginning of the school year when we started officially talking. His looks sure caught my eye. Suddenly, some time after we started talking, I realized I was starting to get a crush on him. This crush grew everytime we talked. I was trying to give him little hints that I liked him, I thought he was giving them back to me. But I was wrong. He told me he liked someone else. Someone better than me. At this point, I would usually give up on the guy. But he was different. I kept on liking him. I never stopped. I watched him date other girls rather than me. I watched myself hurt. I was so scared to tell him how I really felt because I knew he didn’t feel the same way. I wanted to give up so bad, but something kept telling me not to let go of him. I always wished that he would like me back. Whenever I’d talk to him, I’d feel so annoying, and as if he wasn’t even interested. Months passed, and I never got over him. Man, when I saw I got a message from him, I was so happy. We started talking again, but not everyday. One night came when he told me he liked me. I was the happiest girl on Earth. I couldn’t stop smiling. That was the point in time where we were all flirty & everything. Every text would make me smile like an idiot. It was those type of texts where you re-read and smile. I still haven’t deleted his messages…lol. I really do like him. Whenever his name pops up in a conversation, i can’t stop talking about him. Whenever I see him text me, I fangirl over him lol. I always make little scenerios in my head about him & I. I don’t know, we haven’t talked in awhile, and I’m scared something bad might happen. I feel like it could be my fault somehow. After liking this boy for about 5 months, I can’t just ruin it.
so that’s the story basically.
Your daily routine of talking with someone simply disappears. No one hits each other up anymore. If they do, it’s those neutral “Hey whats up?” “Nothing Much hbu?” conversations. What happened to all the effort that was once put into this friendship? You realize that somehow and somewhere along the lines someone-or even both of the people-had given up or just stopped. Every single thing happens for a reason. What was the reason for all of this to end?
Everyone changes at some point, and you can’t really do anything about it. People change for the good and sometimes for the bad. It’s really sad seeing someone change, especially when that person is close to you. Watching them everyday changing the way they act or appearance. What can you do? Changes are a part of life.
